I should be asleep right now, curled up in my bed, surrounded by fluffy blankets and listening to the faint sound of snores beside me.
As I’m sitting here, being wide awake from my spoonful of Ben & Jerry’s ice cream, my silent surroundings (which is pretty rare) has got me thinking.
Now that I’m living in the present moment, I can’t stop but think about my life in terms of loss moments and chances. In terms of loss time we can never get back.
I didn’t want to spend time arguing with my loved one. I didn’t mean to lose another night without him. I didn’t want to lose days, weeks, months.
But, I did.
I took our time together for granted, thinking I got many more suns and moons.
I took our conversations for granted, thinking I can always share my thoughts and feelings another time.
Moments are lost, but at the same time, things happen for a reason, right?
Distance, in some cases, can strength a relationship. All the lost time is being made up right now.
All the heartbreak is being healed right now. All the happiness is being spent and shared.
Without those loss of moment, I wouldn’t be where I am in my life. I wouldn’t be sitting here in the kitchen, itching to crawl into bed. I wouldn’t be cleaning out closets and buying home decor to make things feel more… homey. I wouldn’t be living Downtown and feeling so… blessed and lucky.
My thoughts are, don’t take things for granted. Don’t take what makes you happy for granted. But, in a case where you might regret a few actions, realize that things happen for a reason and that loss will be replaced with something greater and better.