Journal Entry #005

Saturday, December 29th, 2018

LOL, I honestly can’t help but laugh when I look at how consistent I am at blogging… because I can have spurts of 10 entries scheduled and then be quiet for the remainder of the month or two.

I can’t believe it’s the end of the year already! It’s surreal to think 2019 is coming. I think 2020 would be a little mind boggling for me because I remember vividly as a kid that 2020 seems AGES away. I used to pull out the calculator and calculate how old I’ll be in 2020 or 2050, etc.

During the last couple of days at work when it’s been really quiet, I was thinking a lot about my blog and how excited I am for the posts that I need to catch up on. I think in 2019, I’ll like to put a lot more effort into my blog and stop being so shy about it. I’m a lot more comfortable telling Dan when I’m doing blog stuff so that’s a start, right?

In the first few weeks of January, I think I’ll have to backtrack to a few days/moment in December that I want to share and document.

Anyways, I have a bunch of unread posts to catch up on on my WordPress Reader and Bloglovin…

So, a belated Merry Christmas wish to you, and a Happy New Year!

See you guys in 2019.

Liebster Award

Award picture goes to Twins and Coffee because I’m too lazy to make one, lol.

I think this is my second time doing a Liebster Award? Or third… I can’t recall because I don’t think I did it every time I was nominated… oops!

But, I got tagged from the lovely Hunida over at Hunida’s Blog the other day so without further ado, here’s the Liebster Award!

Here’s how these things go…

  • Acknowledge the blog that gave it to you and display the award
  • Answer 11 questions that the blogger gives you
  • Give 11 random facts about yourself
  • Nominate 11 blogs and notify them of their nomination
  • Give these blogs 11 questions to answer

Hunida’s Questions

What is the grocery store you go to regularly called?

Back at home, I used to go to Safeway because it was literally just right behind us but Safeway is one of the more expensive grocery stores back home. Otherwise, I absolutely loooooove Superstore! 

Here in Australia, I’ve been going to Woolsworth because it’s just down the street from where I live

Are you subscribed to any subscription boxes?

Not anymore… I used to subscribe to an underwear box (I know, seriously…). I can’t recall what it was called but I don’t think they’re around anymore. I think they were the first underwear subscription box as well. But I’ve been keen on trying two boxes…

  1.  Plant Therapy – this is an essential oil subscription box. I’m not currently subscribed because I’m still new to the EO industry and want to learn more about it before I subscribe to a monthly oil thing.
  2. FitFabFun – I’ve seen so many ads for these things and can see the benefits of the box because holy shit, there’s a shit ton of things for only $50 but I haven’t subscribed to it yet because I hate clutter and hoarding so I wouldn’t know what to do with the items I don’t want because I’m also very lazy to try to sell these things.

Do you ever print out your photos anymore?

The last set of photos I printed was from my Japan trip. I printed them out because it was such a big trip, and the living room walls were super plain. Now, I only print polaroids with my polaroid printer.

What was your favourite project you remember working on in High School?

I remember there was like a little mishap with my timetable so I ended up taking Film class as an elective because it was the only class that looked appealing to me in the time slot (the other option was Strength and Conditioning, lol). It was fun because it turned out, a couple of friends were in that class as well. 

I think my favourite project would be doing a mini music video with my friends. Or the anti-bullying video… or, the gang violence video. Either way, Film class was the best class for fun projects with friends.

Do you think it’s possible for parents to love one of their kids more than the others?

I believe so. The only reason why I believe it is because, sometimes kids turn out to be an asshole, lol. But if we’re saying the family is all happy and fine, I think parents can love different kids in a different capacity (eg. loving one kid a bit more because the one can be successful, and loving another kid a bit more because he/she is more creative). I’m not sure if that made sense or not, but I think parents can love their kids all differently.

If you could donate a large amount of money to one charity, which would you choose?

I would donate to Indigo’s Love of Reading. The reason being, I absolutely love reading and books, and it’s such a great hobby to develop overtime. It takes people to different places; it teaches; it’s relaxing; it’s inspiring; it pushes imagination. Reading does all sorts of great things!

I remember a while back, whenever I shop at Indigo, I choose to donate a couple of dollars. In the back of the check out counters, I saw that my elementary school was being sponsored by the charity. My love for reading developed in elementary school and seeing pictures of familiar teachers and kids so happy with new books and laptops really touched me.

Do you prefer online shopping over going to the store?

Online shopping, 100%! I hate crowds and messy shops, and waiting in line to try clothes on. 

I find online shopping has more selection and sizes available. But, I’m pretty picky with online shops as well – they have to offer in-store returns and same-method refunds. I generally try to avoid stores that only offers in-store credits because there’s not a guarantee I would shop there again.

What was the last book you read that you would give a 5 star rating to?

So, according to my Goodreads, the last 5-star book I read was Educated by Tara Westover. I’m currently reading The Rise and Fall of the Dinosaurs by Steve Brusatte and this is already a 5-star book.

What is your favorite makeup product?

I don’t wear much make-up, the reason being I suck at make-up. But if I had to choose, I think it would be liquid eyeliners. I love Rimmel London stuff.

Do you wash your face everyday with a cleanser?

Yes, I do. I basically use the cleanser when I’m in the shower and I alternate between whatever is cheap/currently on sale in the drug store, lol. But, I’ve some to find the Simple line is super efficient and clears up the skin.

What was your favorite toy as a child?

I loved Barbies and then switched over to Polly Pocket in the 3rd grade. I think Polly Pocket ultimately wins.

11 (Random) Facts About Me

  1. I am a very picky eater. I dislike donuts, pizza, pasta (or mainly Italian cuisine), apples and oranges, Chinese cuisine… and probably more I’m forgetting on the top of my head.
  2. My first blog was back in 6th grade on MSN Spaces, and it was called Jessica’s Island.
  3. I have a Rasputin, and Hitler mug if you ever come over to have a cup of tea with me.
  4. I wear size 2 youth shoes… or size 4 women’s. 
  5. I have a total of 12 piercings and 3 tattoos. My next tattoo will be a koala bear as a tribute to my move to Australia. 
  6. I am allergic to alcohol (beer, vodka, wine, cider, etc). This allergy developed over time as I was able to drink when I was younger. I’m not talking about “Asian glow” or anything. Full on allergic reaction when I dip my tongue in wine or drink a few sips of beer.
  7. Foods I can eat every day for the rest of my life? Cheese, sushi and chicken wings.
  8. I moved out at the age of 23… a bit older than what most young adults would do.
  9. My biggest fear is snakes. I can’t even look at a picture without feeling anxious and my palms sweaty.
  10. I’m also very afraid of balloons… but not as afraid as snakes. 
  11. I love solo travelling and try to do it at least once a year. 

I Tag…

  1. Victoria at The Caffeinated Millennial 
  2. Glaiza at Glimmer of Happiness
  3. Jasmine at Thoughts from Jasmine
  4. Jess at Jess is Peachy
  5. Kelsey at Kelsey Writes
  6. Sage at Sage Olivia
  7. Sorayah at The Girl in All Leopard
  8. Bailey at Bailey Bee
  9. Ella at Purely Ella
  10. Abigail at Abigail Rose West
  11. You! If your name isn’t on this list and you’re reading this… give it a shot!

My 11 Questions

  1. What was your high school experience like?
  2. What is your go-to dish to cook? (for any occasion)
  3. What do you dislike most about your city?
  4. Have you ever had a paranormal encounter?
  5. Have you ever stolen anything?
  6. What is your current job and if you could have any job in the world, what would it be?
  7. Where is your happy place?
  8. What is the oldest piece of electronics you own?
  9. If you can get rid of any holiday (hallmark or national), what would it be and why?
  10. What is something that society does that you just don’t quite seem to understand why?
  11. How would you define success?

Let me know if you end up doing this tag! I’d love to read your answers and discover other new blogs.

What it's Like With a Public Blog

It’s a been a few months since I’ve rebranded to October Rain and publicly and actively shared my blog again. If you didn’t know, shortly after high school, I created a new blog and kept it “off the grid”, meaning, I did my best to hide it from my peers. I didn’t promote it by any means – hell, I didn’t even mention to people that I was a blogger.

I kept it so private, that the only way you could’ve found me was stalking my online friends or following me as I moved through multiple URL changes.

(But, a few did find me, lol).

I kept that blog “off the grid” for years! It wasn’t until last year when I shared little bits of my blog on Snapchat and casually mentioning to my peers that I blogged. Since then, the idea of having a “public blog” grew stronger and stronger until I talked to a few friends and ultimately decided to have a public blog again – thus, the rebranding to October Rain.

So, what’s it like having a public blog again? It’s embarrassing and shy.

What it's Like With a Public Blog

It’s not like I’m trash talking anyone that I know of or posting explicit things. For me, blogging has been such a big secret hobby of mine and for the first time ever in years, I’m sharing my hobby with everyone again. It was different having a public blog back in high school because I wasn’t thinking about the consequences or cared much about it. I didn’t think people were even reading my blog because I never got any engagement on it, nor was I promoting it (I mean, did Facebook and Twitter even existed back then – wait, Facebook did but not Blogging Groups).

I feel exposed to the world for all my peers to read my thoughts and opinions. Including those who I normally wouldn’t share my thoughts with. I’m a personal blogger and always will be so I enjoy sharing fun adventures and deep thoughts I have at 3am. I mean, I can always stop posting about my life and transition into a lifestyle blogger, but then I get shy about that.

Who am I to “professionally” blog about travelling when I haven’t seen the world yet? Or talk about finances like I’m sitting on my ass raking in bank? I classify myself as a lifestyle blogger because I do blog about these topics but from time to time, and it’s from personal experiences. But I don’t want to blog about it full time like I know all there is to know about that topic.

I’m also very shy about my blog still. I don’t know why. I want to hide it from my peers (but not the world) because I fear that peers would judge me about my interests and what I say online. It’s like… do I want my peers to know how frugal I really am? Do they think my money saving tips is stupid and lame? The other day, my boyfriend was telling our circle of friends about my blog and what it’s called, and what I do, etc. My face wasn’t growing hot but I squirmed a bit because I’m being exposed as a blogger.

I guess, after years of hiding and secretly blogging (hell, even my ex-boyfriend didn’t even know I blogged), it’s like everyone is slowly discovering my secret naughty hobby. It’s like hiding your darkest secret for the longest time and having it exposed to the world. There’s nothing bad about blogging or being labelled a blogger – it’s almost like a norm nowadays.

When I re-launched as October Rain, I was also a bit scared and paranoid. You may have noticed that I blog under my middle name now, Claire. The reason being, I’m paranoid and conscious of my online footprint. I am aware that employers and people do Google you and back then, even if you didn’t search my full name and searched “[first name] + Vancouver”, I’m on the Google results. I hated it. I got so paranoid that I was so convinced that employers didn’t schedule any interviews with me because they found my blog and/or Twitter. I told my friends that if I was to have a public blog, I’d definitely be using my middle name, whether or not I do land on Google searches.

But, I’m getting used to it. I promote my blog actively and am no longer as shy as I was before to talk about my blog. Maybe I won’t openly mention it and if it comes up in a conversation, I’ll go with the flow, but it’s something I’m happy about it. It’s an online journal of my life and articles where people do find helpful. I’m so happy to have discovered blogging back in 6th grade and it’s one of the only hobbies that I’ve truly invested in time after time.

How do I break it down that I'm a personal blogger?

Have any of you guys ever experienced this awkward moment when you’re conflicted to telling the person you’re dating that you’re a blogger? Regardless if you’re a lifestyle, beauty, photography blogger… the fact that you just own a blog.

This blog is probably the only social media outlet that I don’t share with people I know in real life (and if you’ve managed to stumble across it, that’s fine). I don’t care if the person I’m dating has access to my Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, etc.

But when it comes to blogging… I don’t know, I like to keep it to myself.

Not because I trash talk people, but in a sense that everything here is personal to me. I share these with people that don’t know me personally, but still know me virtually… does that make sense? o_O

But of course, if I can’t tell “him”/”her”, what’s the point of blogging it?

I don’t know.. I just want to document my thoughts and life!

So, I’ve been seeing this guy, ‘D’ for about… 3-4 weeks? He makes me happy :3

I sometimes have this paranoia that he somehow stumbled across my blog… how, I don’t know since this link is removed off every social media profile.

And compared to me hanging out with all my other friends, whenever I hang out with D. I feel super shy with my camera… like I can’t “camwhore”, take scenery photos, take foodies, and random photos because he’d ask why I take so many photos! Actually, he did mentioned I take like a billion photos…

With my other friends, I snap away and they don’t care. I think they know I’m into social medias (and some knows I blog.. but that’s besides the point). With D, I just feel so shy because I have this fear of judgement that he’ll judge me based on this blog.

Have you bloggers felt.. shy/nervous/afraid/etc. of your date finding you have a blog?

And that you document a lot of daily life and take photos like crazy?

If so, how did you come around it?