Journal Entry #011

Thursday, April 4th, 2019

It’s officially autumn in Melbourne! I’m not complaining though because it’s warm enough to go out in a tank and tee but not hot enough to burn your eyeballs. I love the crisp mornings and warm afternoons!

Dan and I are starting the countdown to the end of our Melbourne trip and as each day rolls by, I am getting more and more excited to leave.

I am just sooooo done with living with roommates. Seriously. I think I’m going to write an entry on living with roommates when I get back home.

I particularly don’t enjoy one of my roommates right now and I guess because I know I’m out of here soon, my tolerance for his bs is shrinking and shrinking.

For example, he decided to shave his head in the backyard. Not a problem.

However, when you don’t clean up your hair… that’s disgusting. I mean, I like to eat outside from time to time so seeing blobs of hair is hella disgusting. His logic was “the wind will blow it away”. We’ve had a few windy days and they’re still stuck on the ground!


Since we have limited time left, we decided that every time we go out to eat, we’re going to hit up a new place. Dan and I have the tendency to return to restaurants if we love the food but I’m putting my foot down and told him we’re going to try new restaurants going forward.


Oh yeah, I finally managed to buy tickets to Avengers: End Game! Dan wants to catch it in IMAX before we go so I legit – kid you not – spent an hour or so refreshing the website until I successfully managed to get tickets for us. We’re catching it on April 25th!

The more I think about it, the more excited I am for this movie, lol. But seriously, the struggles to purchase tickets online is real.

By the time this post goes live, Dan and I will be on our Great Ocean Road road trip (God bless the scheduling option!) so I hope you have a fantastic weekend!

Journal Entry #010

Tuesday, February 26th, 2019

Happy Tuesday! Whoop, whoop – I reached my 10th journal entry! I am really loving these journal entries because it allows me to just share my thoughts or share the little things in life when I don’t have events or other posts lined up.

Also, on another blogging related note… I transferred all my Bloglovin blogs onto my WordPress reader because I absolutely love the WP Reader more than Bloglovin!


Dan is currently at the gym right now and I’m trying to squeeze a quick entry in before I have to prep dinner – which is yummy tuna avocado wraps and nachos… mmmm.

I was planning to do a whole post about UFC 234 but it wasn’t flowing whatsoever. You guys ever want to share an event in your life but for whatever reason, it doesn’t flow no matter how many times you’ve edited it?

That was my UFC post so I’ll just quickly dump some photos from that event.

It was my first ever live UFC event which is amazing! I absolutely loved the fights (despite the main title fight was cancelled >.>) and the atmosphere. I’m a bit torn in which sport gives a better live entertainment experience – hockey or UFC?


Today, I tried to redesign my WP blog but gave up after about 20 minutes of dabbling around. I remember back then when I was on Blogger, I’d create a new blog banner every now and then but since moving to WordPress, I couldn’t give two shits anymore, lol. I am sooooo content with just a plain title and don’t bother messing around Photoshop anymore.

Also, I didn’t have work today and I thought The Sims 4 Strangerville was coming out today… I could’ve SWORN that I read it was coming out on Feb 26th but I guess it’s available tomorrow (Australia). I wanted to play the new Game Pack on my day off but I’d hold off until the next long weekend to play.

Anywho, I have about 30 minutes before Dan returns from the gym soooo I guess I better start pitting avocados and cutting some vegs up.

Journal Entry #009

Saturday, February 16th, 2019

I’m writing this journal with a tummy full of delicious sushi after our late Valentine’s Day dinner that we just returned from.

Can I just say… what a week! It went by tremendously fast and my wallet is begging me to stop spending. The fact that this week consisted of Dan’s birthday and Valentine’s Day didn’t help, and last week was UFC night (which I’ll blog about sometime this week!).


Last weekend, we dropped by Gelato Messina on Chapel Street after watching the Alita movie (which was somewhat decent… about a 7/10). It was recommended by Charlotte and Sophie at work and we were in Windsor so we mind as well check it out.

The gelato is probably the best I’ve had so far in Melbourne! The place is dark (like a nightclub to be honest) and there’s no lineup or ticketing system. It’s pretty much like ordering at the bar where you just have to catch the shop associate’s attention if you want to order.

Do you see Robert Brownie Jnr? Hilarious isn’t it?!

On Wednesday, it was Dan’s birthday! He turned the ripe ol’ age of 29… lol.

As a gift, I got him the Huawei P20 phone. He hasn’t owned a quality smartphone since his Galaxy Note died so I thought it would make a nice gift, especially since we’re travelling and he has mentioned a few times that he wished he had a better smartphone to take better pictures. I’m honestly blown away by how far phone cameras have come to be!

That day I also left work early to hit the CBD to pick up another surprise and his Valentine’s Day gift as well.

I picked up Uncle Tetsu (his favourite dessert) and a pack of Corona beers.

Cheese tarts!
Matcha Madeleines.

It turned out that his work finished at 3pm and they took him out for some drinks until 5:30pm so when he came back home, he was a little tipsy.

We ordered Chinese food as his birthday dinner and our Greek roommate poured him some very strong Greek vodka so, by the end of the night, he was a goner.

This drunken photo of Dan is going into our scrapbook because it’s the only photo I have of him on his birthday!


The next day was Valentine’s Day! Happy belated Valentine’s Day to all my readers!

This year, we decided to keep it super simple with a budget of $50. After work, we ordered mediocre sushi and watched some Parks and Rec.

I got him two of his favourite League of Legends Funko Pops. He has a third one back at home that his best friend got him for his birthday so it added well to his collection.

For my Valentine’s Day gift, Dan got me a gift card to a fancy salon to get my hair styled properly. Ever since I started growing out my pixie cut from the summer, I became very self-conscious because I believed the barber didn’t know how to cut and style pixies properly so it has left me with an ugly shape and blob. I have it scheduled for March 2nd so I’m super excited to get my hair fixed!

Also, while we’re on the topic of V-Day, please visit my blogging friend, Hunida’s post on 5 years of Valentine’s Day dates! It’s by far my favourite V-Day related post and it’s just soooooo adorable!


Today, we slept in until 11am and had a very late brunch, followed by a late gym session (my legs and glutes are soooo sore!). We decided to hit up our favourite sushi place again and while it’s supposed to be Dan’s late birthday dinner, he changed it to be our late Valentine’s Day dinner so that was very nice!

Since I got him those two Funko Pops, I caved and went back to EB Games to grab my two Golden Knight boys 😛

Anyways, it’s getting late so I’d end this post with a funny picture of our third roommate, Charlii.

Claiming my Confidence Back

If you know me in real life, you’ll probably laugh and couldn’t believe that I was once often described as outgoing, fierce, confident, and even intimidating.

Shit, I can’t believe my peers used to describe as that as well!

Now, I’m often told I’m quiet. And you know, I wasn’t born loud and confident either. I was born a quiet and shy person and only started to come out of my shell when I got a job at Best Buy as a sales associate shortly after high school. Ever since that job, I felt like a different person but since turning 24, I sort of fell back to my old ways.

I’m quiet. I’m shy. I care about what people think. I don’t speak with my true voice. I hide my thoughts and opinions. I look down at the sidewalk when I walk. I don’t take as many selfies as I used to, or post videos. I get self-conscious and confused.

That’s not who I am. That was who I was back in high school.

A few months ago, shit hit the fan with Dan and our mutual friends group. I felt really betrayed by everyone in our group and I had enough of that “it wasn’t my place to tell you” bullshit.

During my recovery process, I felt like I needed an answer to the final question from this one girl in our group. I have put it off for nearly a month because I was afraid of her. I was afraid of what she would think about the whole situation. I was afraid of any potential clap back she might give me. I was afraid that she’ll talk behind my back and tell everyone how stupid she thinks I am.

But, I did it anyways and even when she was telling me the answer that I needed to move on and heal, I was still afraid of what she thought and felt about me and the whole situation.

During the recovery process, I also deleted my Facebook and Instagram, and even then I was still afraid and worried about what she would think of my actions. And it’s not just her, I was also afraid of another person in the group. I was scared that they’ll call me out for my actions, calling me immature and dumb. I was prepared to apologize for “going rogue” if I ever decide to log back into FB and Insta.

A few days ago, I saw this quote on Reddit and it hit home.

Why did I care so damn much about what this girl thinks of me? Why did I feel like I needed her approval in my life? If I wanted to delete my social media profiles, I shouldn’t have to explain or apologize why I did it. If she wants to tell people how much drama I am causing in the group, then go be it. I just didn’t know why I cared and worried over that. And it’s not just her but everyone. I don’t want to seek approval from anyone anymore.

After seeing that post, I told myself that I am going to reclaim my confidence. I want to be described as intimidating, confidence, and outgoing. Yeah, I’m quiet because I don’t have much to say but that doesn’t mean I want to lack confidence. People can be quiet and still give a strong aura.


An old friend told me that when you turn 25 and hit the “quarter-life crisis” you start to doubt everything and the confidence starts to wither away but it picks back up later.

I’m ready to pick up my confidence and erase my doubts. I’m tired of trying to please everyone and seek other people’s validating when just two years ago I was a firecracker. I’m tired of being afraid to live my life. I’m tired of being afraid to tell people my thoughts and feelings in fear of what they might think of me.

I’m ready to be my self again, and I’m reading to take a shit ton of videos and selfies.

Letter #3 – Losing you is my life’s biggest regret

Dear Dee,

I know this is a long shot and you’ll probably never see this letter but I just wanted to get it out there.

You were my best friend growing up. You were there through it all and I threw away a decade of friendship over the dumbest reason – a boy.

I was young and immature. We both were. I was getting annoyed and blamed the fall of our friendship on you when I played a part in it as well.

I still remember that night vividly when I walked away from your birthday party. I thought I was defending my boyfriend but in hindsight, I was walking away from our friendship, and that boyfriend became my ex shortly.

I remember Joere and Farhad telling me that I should make amends, and they were telling me that you miss me and wanted to talk to me. But I just dodged your calls and texts. I felt so angry when I felt like you were talking about your boyfriend 24/7 and not acknowledging my feelings or how my day went. I kept on calling you selfish and making excuses to not amend our friendship.

I went through such a dark period in my life but I was too embarrassed and ashamed to tell you that Sukh and I broke up. I grew insanely envious and bitter that you were still with Farhad when I should’ve been happy that you found someone you loved so dearly. I was a shit friend back then.

I remember a few years ago, you haunted my dreams. I took Madison’s advice and sent you a message through Facebook but you left me on read. I don’t blame you but I was hoping you would message back asking for a coffee catch up or something. I miss you dearly.

You still haunt my dreams and I debate if I should reach out again. You moved on from our friendship, but I obviously didn’t. Losing you as my best friend is my biggest regret in life and I wish I could turn back time. I am so sorry for the way I treated you when I was insecure about myself and my relationship. You were my best friend; a great friend. You were always there when I needed you. You were my shopping buddy, my food buddy, my movie buddy.

I don’t know what you’re doing right now but I hope you’re doing well and happy. I bet you are now a strong and beautiful woman carving the best life for yourself. I hope you still think about our friendship once in a while.

And I hope that you could forgive my dumb, immature young self one day because if you ever gave me a chance for a coffee date, I’ll take it in a heartbeat.

Journal Entry #008

Friday, February 8th, 2019

Oh boy, it’s the week before Valentine’s Day (and Dan’s birthday)!

I won’t lie – this year, I haven’t planned anything for his birthday or V-Day. I think it’s because we’re travelling this year and agreed that it’s not worth blowing money on these two days… plus, we also don’t have any friends to celebrate it with, haha.

I called in sick to work so I had the day off today. Headaches are the worst, and they’re even worse when you drown yourself in painkillers and they still won’t go away!

I spent today looking at grad school. I’ve been having this itch lately to go back to school and my colleague, Sophie, told me there are Master programs out there that don’t require a thesis. The only reason why I’ve never considered a Master’s program is because I don’t believe I could ever complete and defend a thesis. I wouldn’t even know what to write my thesis on. I would rather do projects and essays than write a thesis.

So, I’ve compiled a list of potential Master programs to take when I settle back at home. I’m looking to do it online so I can balance work and not take any more student loans either.


My roommate Tiffany purchased these gluten-free Lamington (like a chocolate cake with coconut). They’re soooo yummy so I took a picture for reference. They would make a good Aussie gift for our friend, Tiffany back at home.

Last Friday, we also went to the famous Crown Casino in the city. I’ve seen it a million times and finally got to go visit it. I don’t know why but even though I have no clue how to gamble aside from hitting the slot machines, I love casinos. The atmosphere is fun and they got pretty cool lounges.

The Crown Casino really reminded me of Las Vegas. It’s so much better than the casinos we have back at home.

Prior to hitting the casino, we stopped by Viva Kebabs for a Halal Snack Pack (HSP) which is equivalent to the Canadian poutine but with tons more toppings. It’s fries, with melted cheese curds, meat (usually chicken and/or lamb) and a bunch of sauces. 10/10 would order again!

I withdrew $20 and Dan withdrew $100 so in total, we lost $120 that night. Didn’t hit a single row in my slot machines and Dan lost his playing blackjack.

The highlight of that night was when we both had to go to the bathroom. Like anywhere else, there was a line up in the women’s. By the time I came out, I found this girl full on hitting on Dan.

So, it’s really rare for me to get jealous when it comes to Dan and girls. I didn’t go bat-shit crazy on this girl. I just stood there and laughed at the entire situation and basically waited until Dan finished telling this girl off. When she turned around to see me, she literally was yelling “is this her?!”.

Like, yep – this is me. Dan said she was trashy wasted, lol.


I’m taking this weekend to catch up on blog posts and write some of my own. There are a few I got in mind and just need to transfer it on to “paper”.

Also, our local movie theatre is having an early screening for Alita: Battle Angel movie! We’re catching it tomorrow night at 7PM and I can’t wait to spoil it for those back home (lulz jks).

Have a great weekend!

Journal Entry #007

Monday, January 28th, 2019

I said it once and I’m going to say it again… January 2019 is done already?! The first and last month of the year always flies by for me. I can’t believe this is my last entry of the month!

I’m quite proud of myself lately. 2019 has been a great start so far in terms of finally getting around to one of my goals that I always set year after year. And that is… learning how to cook.

Prior to the start of the year, I Googled and snapped pictures of easy, peasy, lemon squeezy recipes and saved them onto my Google Notes app to sort of make an online recipe book. I think of the things that failed in the past was I would always dive head first and get overwhelmed by all these ingredients and cooking methods. I had to realize that even professionals had to start somewhere so I broke it down into easy recipes so I can master the techniques and get comfortable working with different ingredients.

Dan and I sat down to make a weekly dinner plan so we also won’t be tempted to order out or drop by the supermarket and spend $30 on one dinner. The other day, I felt so cheesy that we’re one of those families that have declared Wednesday nights as meatloaf nights.

Shit quality but first time making meatloaf! We followed an easy one pan meatloaf dinner recipe w/ broccoli and sweet potato.

Following Vivian’s recommendation, I dragged Dan to try out Sakura Kaiten Sushi and oh my lord, it’s the best sushi we’ve had since arriving in Melbourne! There was a small line up when we went but it was sooooo worth it. It took me by surprise how cozy and small the restaurant was. Definitely an intimate place to have dinner.

And, did I mention that this is another sushi train restaurant?! It’s not as cool was Genki Sushi in Tokyo but better than Sushi Hub!

Since it’s a sushi train, we pay by the dishes and each colour of the dishes represent a different price. I think we picked out most of the $3-something plates.

The damage!

We have also been trying new local restaurants as well! We went to Burger Bliss for some delicious burgers – they got very yummy fries, and Wings of Glory for some good ol’ chicken wings. We only went to Wings of Glory because I found a Groupon deal, lol.


So, taking 10-20 minutes walks throughout the day is highly encouraged by my team at work so I’ve been starting to go on daily walks after my lunch. Now only does it kill time (haha), but it also makes me feel like I’m burning off some calories from my lunch. I work in Footscray and it’s surrounded by very nice graffiti murals.

Dan’s dad also requested us to find a book called The Killer Koala and we tracked it down via an online store. It’s somewhat of a rarity I suppose because very few stocks were available online and most of the ones we found were on Amazon or eBay for almost $100! We got the book for only $30 with free shipping.

Dan has finished reading it and I heard him chuckle a few times throughout the book so I’m keen on reading it as well before we ship it back to Canada for Dan’s dad.